Memories
Mom, I am attending the Church today that you loved going to. I was amazed as I sat and watched you go to the front of the Church that Sunday night. You asked the Pastor that night to heal you, and as I watched he placed his hands upon your head and ask God to save and heal you. I watched as you overcome by the spirit of the Lord gently slip to the floor. I was very scared but the Saints of the Church were right there to protect and watch over you, after several minutes as they helped you to your feet, I watched as you returned to the pew in front of my crying the rebirth of our beloved Mom. I know we did lose you but on that horrible day that we learned you had one artery open in your heart, we were blessed with the 3 years that God blessed us with. I still sit in the same seat behind where you sat, was very hard the first time but I can still see the glow in your face as you returned that blessed night...I will love and miss you always...Wayne
Mom, as Sunday gets closer I can feel the lump welling up in my throat. I was hoping if you saw us all there that night, crying begging God not to take you, you would stay with us. Here it is almost a year later and I still keep hoping that you will call...I wake up and realize you are gone. I don't even feel like getting out of bed. I got close enough that night to look into your eyes, I hope you saw how much I Love you...a big piece of me left with you. I Love you Mom forever.
grandma your gonna be gone a whole year on sunday. it just feels like all of this is coming back to me and i feel like im gonna go crazy. nobody understands how i feel im going through one of my crying stages again where when i think about it it makes me wanna cry and i cant stand it much longer im going insane.
grandma i love you and i miss you. please help me get through this.jordan is trying his hardest to get me through this but he cant help me like you could. god why did you have to leave me . i hate it.. i miss you and i want you back.but i know i wont be getting you back please come back im in so much pain. the family is falling apart nobody seems to talk to anyone anymore...i hate it i wish we could go back 2 years ago and change all of this. maybe you would still be her grandma please i love you and miss you...
Mom, here is your cake for you Birthday, I wish you were here today. I Love and Miss you Mom
Mom, I never could totally leave your side. I never realized how much I needed you till you were gone. Now what do I do? My life is riddled with pain, and I am so sad all the time. I just sit in my car at work and listen to songs played at your funeral, hoping that God will allow the phone to ring...you will be on the other end telling me you are fine. I hear and read it in the words of my beloved family just how important you were to all of us. I hate to burden my sisters and brother with this, their lives are devastated too.
this year your birthday is gonna be so hard.i miss you and so does the family. and we all love you.i love and miss you.
Mom, this year is very unhappy birthday for us. I did save a picture of your cake, I Love you Mom
i love and miss u even more everyday sometimes i dont wanna wake up again and have the pain in my heart. i hate this night mare i wish i would wake up and u would be here right by myside telling me you love me. i want to hug u so bad. i wanna be able to see you and hug you. i wish i would be at your house tonight doing the papers i miss you and the fun we would have on fridays. you were my angel and i know your watching over me and you always will be. but it just keeps getting harder and harder to live. why did you have to leave?
Mom, I had a dream last night I am so down now. I dreamed that you were still alive but I had the chance to save you. I tried to make sure there was help waiting so you would not die, I was so happy....Then I wake back up to this nightmare. I am sitting here not grateful for waking up!
Mom,
It is not the same without you here. We are getting ready to have Lee's 4th Birthday party. I know how much you love these get togethers. We will miss you so much not being here. There is such a big empty space in all our hearts for you. I know how much you loved Lee and talking to him on the phone. He use to make you laugh a lot. I miss the phone calls from you so much. I love I miss you!!!!
I can remember Mom getting ready for Christmas dinner at her house. The turkey always overflowed and the oven would catch fire, burning the rolls. We always had the back door open for the smoke. I also remember walking into Dees and Mom was the first person I would see, all the laughter and joy because we had our family anchor....now what?
I don't know how to be Thankful this year. I can remember how the room lit up when you walked in on Thanksgiving. now your chair is empty my heart is so broken. I miss so much your phone calls when you got up, and when you would call at night and pray with me. I try not to think about it hoping that you will not really be gone, but there are signs all around and I have to relive that nightmare. I Love You Mom.
grandma i dont kno how to get through it still hurts so bad:[[
i wish u could just give me a hug and comfort me:[[
i miss u so much:[
i love u :]
why is it still so hard?
i just want u back in my life:[
but i know that wont happen but u will always be in my heart
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and i know u are happy up there:]
say hi to grandpa for me:]
the hole in my heart is filling slowly:[
but never will be the same again".
i love ya grandma miss u very much:]
I think of the wonderful things about you, Mom they still hurt to remember. I talk to Debbie about the front yard, you loved a green yard. I remember tilling up the front yard, all the mud and the straw, you wanted bluegrass. You were so upset because the birds kept eating it up. I talked to Jay about Donnie climbing in the bathroom window and scaring us, Gerogie went flying over the end table and had rug burns all down the front of him. We sat on the couch with you so afraid, it is so scarey now not having you there to chase away the fears.
Mom, I cannot face the holidays without you this year. I never thought I would have to, I believed that I would see you before they came. Mom we have always been together, I remembered sleeping outside of your room when you had bypass, it was so cold, but I was terrified if I left and wasn't there when you woke, that you would leave. Mom so many times at night you couldn't sleep and Vicki or myself would sit at the end of your bed all night long. I am forever grateful for the one night I got sick and could not, Vicki sat there with you. The night I blacked out in the bathroom and called you, you sat by my side and I felt safe. I feel like pieces of my very heart are gone, I thank God everyday for you. Why was I not there that night, you left if I asked you might have stayed. I Love and Miss you
I had a very nice conversation with Betty Jo today. Was nice remembering the good times with you, Grandma, Mildred, Betty Jo, Donnie and everyone else. I just cannot hardly believe I cannot here from you again. Mom you were another beat of my heart, now my heart skips that beat. I am trying to continue and be what you would expect of me, but losing you has turned out to be almost more than I can bear, I foolishly thought God would never take you away. I love and Miss you Everyday till my last.
Mom, don't know how to face the holidays without you. I wish I could be with you by Christmas, I am not trying to feel sorry for myself I just lost my purpose now. I am trying so hard to pick up the pieces of my life, but so many pieces of my life tied to you...now where do I turn. I am not worried about having surgery now, God will decide what my life is to become. Taking you away has been so unfair, I am seeing just how important you were to ALL of our family, Donnie, Katie, Dee, Debbie, Connie, Angel and all the family are so important to me. Just gets so hard sitting here all alone I miss so much calling and talking to you, had a nice time at Dees today, but they have their life and needed to go. They are so wonderful, but I feel like a burden and I hate to call them crying all the time. I wish so much this was a dream, the first thing I do when I wake up is hope it is...but your obitutary is right on my dresser and the horrible truth hits me before I can get out of bed. Don't know how to face life without you...I Love you Mom, someday I look forward to seeing you again.
Mom, I have many regrets about the night you left us. I wish I would have came straight home, then I would have been there. I would have did anything to save you, Mom I would have laid down in your place just so you could stay. I would have loved to held you in my arms, and comforted you if you could not be saved. But you and God both know that I would not be able to go on if I was there. I am so grateful that Tabby was there and you knew that somebody who loved you heart, body, and soul was there. God was not going to let you be in pain one more second, nothing anybody could do would have changed the wost night in our lives. Regrets are not needed for you, but remembering the wonderful woman, that we all were blessed to be a part of. I love you with every part of my heart and soul, I will miss you until I see your beautiful smile again.
i love and miss u and i hate knowing that i will never see u again ... and i feel like there was something i could of done to help u out that night but i was so scared it hurt to see u in pain and i just didnt know what to do... all i could think to do is call 911 but i wish there was something i could of done then i wouldnt be in so muh pain...and u would still be here and i would be waiting for u to call me saturday and tell me you will be here in awhile and i would say ok then we would go have fun with angel and everyone else that came over to visit fridays ... well i love u and miss u!!!=[
Mom, another bad night...I was very upset last-night I had to spend the anniversary of Daddys death by myself this year. We... you and I would spend some time together on that day, now I am alone. Mom the Dr. is worried about my heart, she expects me to forget. I cannot I am sorry you are to important to load up on pills so I don't feel anything...anymore. Mom you have only been gone over 2 months I can't help it I still miss you, and now people won't leave your grave alone. That is where we...your family show how much we treasure you, I can't stand anyone desacrating your memory. Now here it is Friday again and I will be alone all day again, why has life turned out so bad, you were the one bright spot in my world. I love you and I miss you more everyday.
well wensday was ur 2 months being gone and i still cant beilieve that u are gona every friday i hope that u would call and say ill be there in alittle wile but i never get that call... i wish u would come back and give me a big hug and get ur foundation on my glasses like u always did...and how i would watch walker texas ranger with u until i fell asleep... and how i felt so safe sleeping at ur house cause u would never let anything happen to me...and i know that and i hope u are watching over me right now.. protect me ...i love and miss u....
I miss you more and more too Mom.. It is very hard without you around. You were the glue that held us together. All of us could just call you when we need someone to talk to. I love you.
Mom, I know today is Fathers Day and I do miss Daddy, but my heart is still breaking and aching for you. My antidepressants help but I cannot hardly get by not thinking about you. You will forever have my heart in your hands Mom, I wish I had you one more day so I could tell you just how wonderful you are, and the wonderful life you gave to all of your children. Mom I would worship the very ground you walk on, my heart hurts so bad I miss and Love You so much.
Here i am again wanting to call u.But u are not here .I MISS U SO MUCH .I want this to be a dream.But i guess it is not .I am working alot . Makes my days go faster got to go to the hospital thursday for some test on my hands .To see why they hurting so bad.Wish i could call and talk to u .i am trying to talk more to people but i do not call much anyone .Do not like to bother anyone with my problems .Sometimes i think i am just a problem to everyone.Well i am going now .ILOVE YOU ALWAYS AND I WILL ALWAYS MISS U HUGGS AND KISSES .
Mom, this has been so scarey I got home yesterday and I am glad to be home. I kept wanting to call you from the hospital. I do miss you so much Mom, but our family still wants me here. Please help me get through this I am still not feeling very good, I miss you calling me every night and praying over the phone with me. You are missed, loved, and so much more important than you ever knew. I needed my family and Jay and they were all there fighting for me, just like you would be. I wish you were over at your house so bad Mom, I love you Mom.
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